How did it go...

Better I think... I took down most of the paintings from the main walls to make room for more. Moved some books from studio to house. However it hasn’t done much to inspire me if anything I feel just as disconnected. I feel what I am doing is not enough that there is something more I am looking for but can’t put my finger on it. Do I continue painting what I am doing for the sake of painting and keeping busy in the hopes I get inspired. Do I want to take chances and experiment with my approach but what and how does that look like. How important is “idea” to painting. I feel like the minute “idea” comes into play I freeze. To some degree I feel like my interests create paintings that don’t appeal to most people so they just end up in the basement. I know I shouldn’t care, it’s my journey, but I am disappointed people only see the surface. They don't see the thought, the struggle to find the right value, the right shape and it's placement, the right mark, the right temperature of hue. A long answer to a simple question. Just sharing some angst with the only people I know who understand. I will begin again tomorrow.